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I am always watching out for negative thoughts or deeds and words because as it is "out of the overflow of the heart the mouth speaks" and if there is a lot of negativity then the heart must have been filled with these thrash.

The only place where I am welcome is the church that is why I try my best to be giving, I do not want to go to church just because I feel good about my self, but because out of God's mercy I am forgiven of my sins.There is a lot of things I can be grateful for and this I have to keep on reminding myself,otherwise I will be envious, slanderer and corrupt. In the work place alone it is hard to be a Christian, that is indeed a battle field,people have different priorities and that does not include God on the top so it's sad and sometimes it rubs off on me. Which is why I am writing this.

happily ever after !

I could'nt sleep the night before the wedding.I checked in at Fersal Place Hotel
in Malakas St,QC tried to sleep but I can stop from tossing and turning so I just watched tv as I wait for my sister and aunt to curl my hair as it needs to be set overnight.

It was uncomfortable to sleep on your back with the curlers on so I really did not have enough sleep.I set my alarm to go off at 4 so I can have a soothing shower and a pray for the wedding to be smooth sailing and for me to just be happy and not be too emotional and ruin my make up hahaha, I want to leave it up to God.

The photographers came on time, I was surprised to see Mark Surio himself of RealStudio (http://realstudioph.multiply.com/),they were very pleasant and easy to work with and I can sit back and relax knowing that they will do a good job capturing beautiful memories for us to cherish.

We were done with the shoot early,we drove to the ceremony early as well because I was so thrilled to see the place and the people.I think I had to wait for more than half an hour before I can march,and when I finally did,I had a great time seeing people on my left and my right I forgot looking straight ahead where my groom was,my gown was being blown away so hard I can't hardly walk lol,but it was really fun I think I looked funny too hahaha!

Doc. Andre Publico delivered a short charge for the both of us,I'm so glad that our families and frieds were there to hear the awesome message of God's design for marriage.We exchanged personal vows and finally said our i do's and sealed it with a kiss full of love.

Our friends behind the AVP,seating arrangement,registration,and coordination really were efficient and did a great job,for me everything fell into place and was perfect!Jesse and me cannot thank them enough.



At last I'm married to the love of my life what a feeling!The reception was set up magically by Eloquente Catering (http://www.eloquentecatering.com)God made it so beautiful indeed for his Glory, even the flowers were georgeous!thanks to Ren of Amaranthus Florist (http://www.amaranthusflorist.com),I really really wanted red roses,however we chose calla lilies instead because we thought it is much cheaper,now I think it's an answered prayer.

my hair was inspired by this looks:






this is me I felt beautiful indeed ! thanks to Auntie Mary and my sister for making it possible!

we really had a great time thanks to everyone!

10 days to go ...

pic from :www.lovehorsepower.com

I am trying to compose my self and not feel too excited about my wedding because I might not be able to work...like right now geeez :)

Cold feet...Happy feet?

image from http://www.cartoonstock.com/directory/d/doubts.asp

I wish we had some sort of marriage counselling during our dating times so that we can really sort out or differences and work them out during the steady dating times and not feel trapped while preparing for the wedding day,the big day.

I feel confused now and I think I'm getting the cold feet.That's just how I feel now instead of being a happy bride and enjoying the prep times.

Article from:http://www2.prnewswire.com/cgi-bin/stories.pl?ACCT=104&STORY=/www/story/07-13-2005/0004066566&EDATE=

WARNING SIGNS
> Persistent doubt about a conflict between you and your fiance
> Being withdrawn or grumpy. This can indicate second thoughts that you
are not articulating
> Indecision about choosing a date, location etc
> Lack of Interest in wedding planning

ANALYZING THE ANGST: ASK YOURSELF THE FOLLOWING QUESTIONS
> Can you resolve your difference?
> Have you sowed your wild oats?
> Are you stressed about the wedding or about the marriage itself?

GETTING GUIDANCE
> Start counseling as early in the planning stages as possible - before
the invitations are ordered

If a bride-to-be identifies her feelings and realizes her frozen feet
cannot be thawed, BRIDES magazine recommends the following on breaking the
news and tips on how to undo the "I do's."

2nd round of counselling...

from http://www.cartoonstock.com/directory/m/marriage_guidance_counseling.asp

Just gone through our second marriage counseling session :Personal Relationships.
I am aptly described as someone who bottles up emotion,yeah a people pleaser,I bottle up emotion then suddenly burst in anger or frustration even depression due to these bottled up resentments,regrets and unmet needs.It also stems from my inability to communicate my feelings well,but I am full of hope that with God I can change this and deal with it so that Jesse and me will have a healthy married life.

someone obnoxious

this is from http://www.allposters.com/-sp/Rude-Obnoxious-or-Ornery-Posters_i2881879_.htm

I happen to be in the elevator with a very obnoxious lady who probably have tired to malign everyone she sees "nagmamaganda muka namang bakla" was one of her statements...I have a hint that she also threw one at me that's why i'm blogging about it hahaha.

important thoughts

"if a thought or idea is important, write it down,if not release it to the universe..."

1. I wish people will not get credit for my work and make me look dumb.
2. I hope I can write down how my ideal wedding day would look like soon.
3. I hope that with God,I can take care of Jesse especially in this critical time of our engagement.

Sometimes I just can't help but get discouraged at work...

Wedding preps...

Just bought my wedding shoes at Okasyon in Galeria today so happee...it was a gift from my sister.It kinda looks like this:

we're almost 50% ready for the wedding ...almost there...





food tasting,floor plan and photographer